I’m still tired, but I still love writing. I can’t wait for this challenge to be done because I’m tired, but I also can’t wait for it to be done because I need to soak in all of the life lessons without the next post looming in my peripheral. It’s a great big mix of emotions, and if you were to ask my husband or son they would tell you that YES, momma’s a little emotional these days.
Call it stress, call it fear, call it hormones – no matter what you call it, though, there have been quite a few tears in varying quantities going on over here for a variety of reasons.
Before I sound all pathetic and sad, though, I want you guys to know that when the stress and the tears come it means that you can probably find me in my kitchen. One of the bigger lessons I’ve been learning about throughout the #liveboldly dare is that God created – he CREATED – this whole world, and he also made me in his image. Those two together have shown me that I have been created to create. How amazing is that?
I never thought of myself as a creative person per se. I love sports and working out, watching television, playing, reading – and I guess I just never really got that there is a creative side to those things too. Now I’m looking back at my life, seeing what it is now, and peering into the future and I’m seeing it alive and bursting at the seams with creativity that I thought I never had. I am seeing that those times when I have been creative in my own ways are the times that I felt really alive and confident, happy and joyful, and closest to God.
For so long I thought that creativity could only be found in the arts – specifically music and dance – but it’s like the shutters have been thrown open and the light coming in is shining on the fact that life itself has creativity woven throughout. When I would run a play in volleyball, swing a golf club, write a paper or play a game with Wes – there is creativity, creation in those things. There is movement and beauty and love in it all.
And when I’m in the kitchen and get to take pictures of what I make? There is creativity in that too.
As of right now my favorite part of #liveboldly has been finding out that the girl I wanted to be for all those years – the one who creates beautiful things, the one who sees the world in a different light – that girl was always there. And now I’ve met her, and I don’t want to go back. I can’t. And I’m so thankful that God has blessed me, so creatively and so boldly, with such a different brand of creativity than what I thought I needed.
So speaking of creativity – I made you guys this cake. It’s filling and delicious, a perfect thing to eat with a cup of coffee or tea, or a great way to end a fun night with friends. I love it and I think you guys will too!
The recipe for this killer, over-the-top Applesauce Upside-Down Cake is here – go check it out!