Hi, my name is Heather. On the outside I am a calm, collected adult. Apparently I also wear large candles on top of my head. I blame it on the Scandinavian side of me (no reason, just sayin’).
But on the inside I feel like I belong in a mall food court with shaggy black hair, fishnet tights, and pasty skin. Well, at least I have the pasty skin part down.
Yesterday I had a breakdown that rivaled none other I’ve ever seen before. Why? Who knows why. All I know is that Nate and I were reading the chapter on ‘Filling the Void’ in The Four Hour Work Week by Tim Ferriss, and the next thing I know I’m doubled over in a bathroom stall silently bawling my eyes out and grasping for some measure of hope. Again, why? I don’t know. I blame it on the book. And the gloomy weather. And the pasty skin.
Really though, I just realized (as I said in the photo project post) that I have no clue what I’m supposed to be doing with my life. I know the things I love to do and love to experience, but none of it seems possible in our current financial state. And not that money should be everything, but we have to be realistic in understanding that it does hold some sway in how we make decisions. ANYWAY, I’m much better now…I would say I’m 95% the usual happy, hopeful, joyful Heather, but it was a rough one. My eyes are still tired.
At least I fueled properly for said breakdown! Breakfast was on the go from Starbucks (egg white, turkey bacon, gouda, whole wheat English muffin):
I’ll be honest, I got this for the lower calorie content. It’s pretty bland in my opinion, and I’ve really just been craving a green monster for the past 2 weeks anyway. Thank goodness today will be the day we get some more milk! Lunch was the rest of my leftover gumbo, which inevitably made me sweat. Nothin’ like sweating under the A/C vent at work!
Sadly it rained and stormed on my lunch break, so I paid homage to Barnes & Noble and Whole Foods for inspiration in life and in food. There was also some sitting in the car and staring at mountains to be had as well 🙂 I did get to work out when I got home though, completing the WillPower & Grace workout and sweating (again) like a madwoman!
Dinner was amazing. Seriously. Amazing. I am still thinking about it…
- 2 medium zucchini, sliced 1/4″ thin on the diagonal
- 1 medium eggplant, sliced in 1/4″ thin rounds
- 1-2 Roma tomatoes, chopped
- 1 package spicy Italian chicken sausage (mine was from Whole Foods…it’s already cooked), sliced in 1/4″ rounds
- 1 jar marinara sauce (I used 365 brand Roasted Garlic)
- 1 lb pasta of choice
- 1 Tbsp olive oil
- 1 tsp balsamic vinegar
- 1 tsp salt
- 2 tsp garlic powder
- 1 tsp crushed red pepper flakes
- 1 tsp onion powder
- 1/2 cup shredded parmesan cheese
Preheat the grill to about 300 degrees. Grill eggplant and zucchini slices about 3-4 minutes on each side to help dry them out. Boil pasta according to package directions, stopping at a firm al dente. Drain water and set aside. In the empty pasta pot, heat 1 Tbsp of oil over medium heat. Add the chopped tomatoes, spices, and vinegar. Cook for 4-5 minutes, stirring frequently. Add in the jar of sauce and stir to combine. Add the chicken sausage and cook til just heated through. In a 9×13 dish layer a little sauce, pasta, veggies, a pinch of cheese, and repeat til all ingredients are gone. Top with remaining cheese. Cover with foil and bake at 400 for 20 minutes, then increase oven to broil and broil for 3 minutes more, until cheese is brown and bubbly. Let cool 5 minutes and serve!
Oh my word, I am so excited about leftovers tomorrow at lunch! And since we will yet again be running around like chickens with our heads cut off, it’s nice to know that we can eat it for dinner as well if needed 🙂
Thank you all so much for listening to my random rants and raves and breakdowns on this blog…I have faith that everything that happens in life is for a reason, but unfortunately I occasionally forget about that and go off the deep end instead. I’m so thankful to have such incredible support from my husband, great friends and blends (blog friends), my amazing family, and YOU guys! Like Pioneer Woman would say, I love ya’ more than my luggage 🙂
Have you been facing problems like this lately? Questioning the meaning of life? Confused about what direction to take your life? How do you deal? What steps do you take to calm yourself down and think rationally? I’d love to hear it 🙂