Life is funny.
It’s so strange for me to look back at the years and see how I’ve grown and changed and matured over them. And the funniest part about it all is how my perspective of what’s important in life has completely shifted. Something that I’ve noticed as a major change in my life is my body. Maybe it’s because for so many years I cared so very deeply about my physical appearance; maybe it’s because my body is (obviously) a physical representation of who I am inside. Who knows? But what I can say is that through all of the ups and downs I’ve gained an ever deeper respect for my body and what it can do.
(aka high school and college)
With that in mind, I’ve come to the conclusion that my body will never again be what it’s been in the past. It will never be 18 years old again. It will never have NOT been pregnant again. It will likely never be able to run 6-8 miles a day every day again. And even though these things may be true, I’m ok with that because being 18 was an awesome year. Not being pregnant was fun too. And running that much helped shape my thoughts on exercise in addition to shaping my body.
(aka marriage and pregnancy)
My body will never be virgin again. My body will never gain 40 unwarranted pounds again. And my body will never go for months on end without exercise. But even though these things are true, I’m ok with that being I now have an incredible husband who loves my body as it is, always. I now know what it’s like to gain 40 pounds with no good explanation and I know that I don’t want that. And I know that exercise is essential not just for physical health, but to the woman that I am.
(aka motherhood and beyond)
I will never not be a mom. I will never stop caring about the way my body feels. And again, I will never be 18 another time in my life. But every time I look at Weston I know that all of these are OK. I love being a mom and knowing that my body grew such an amazing little baby without me having to try. I love knowing that my body is and will continue to be strong so that I can play with my little boy all day every day. And I love that I won’t be 18 again because the girl I was then is nothing compared to the woman that I am now. Being that size is no longer the priority; the priority is now being strong and happy and healthy.
And you know what? That makes the ‘C’ part of my life pretty stinking fantastic!