Thoughts on life, motherhood, marriage, relationships, hospitality, and the direction I want this sweet little online space of mine to go.
A lot of you have emailed me and really opened up about how easy it is to get caught up in the numbers and comparison game in this blogging community. I get it – I really do. I’m an extremely competitive person at heart, to the point that it can become a massive stumbling block for me. In this community part of the job is all about self-promotion, and it can be so easy to look at those exclamations of the greatness of others and get down about what you’re doing or not doing.
I get that. Because I do it too.
But the biggest pulling on my heart lately is to use this space and this voice and the little bit of influence that God has given me to help others see the grace and righteousness that comes only from the Lord. You need to know that if you’re a massively famous blogger who gets free trips and amazing product and has hundreds of thousands of followers or if you’re a small blogger with a smaller audience or if you don’t even blog at all – you have been given incredible gifts that will bless. Those gifts will bless others but more importantly they will bless and audience of One. You can do great things – YES YOU CAN. You can do great things – AS LONG AS YOU REST IN THE ONE WHO HAS DONE THE GREATEST THING. A verse I read Sunday that I’ve been resting in during this season of erasing comparison from my life is 2 Timothy 2:20-21:
In a well-furnished kitchen there are not only crystal goblets and silver platters, but waste cans and compost buckets—some containers used to serve fine meals, others to take out the garbage. Become the kind of container God can use to present any and every kind of gift to his guests for their blessing. (The Message translation)
I am now faced with a challenge of continuing on a path of unhappiness because all of my self-promotion and claims of greatness and recipes that I’m SO SURE can bring me millions of hits in a single day OR I can choose to allow God to take over this space and do something great with it. By “great” I don’t mean huge numbers of followers and endless cash flow, but rather do something that will change someone’s life forever. I can let God use me or I can keep putting faith in myself and failing again and again and again.
And y’all? I think I’ll choose the former. Because by getting over my compulsive desire to post 5+ recipes a week – just in case I lose readers if I don’t – I am finally learning how to live life. To create relationships, to bless others, and to use my gifts of encouragement and compassion. I like living a happier life – and my wish and my prayer is that somehow, some way, this little blog can help you do the same.
Be blessed y’all. I love you 🙂