Wow. I did it – I dared myself to live boldly for 31 days and wrote about it. Honestly it didn’t all go as planned; about halfway through I couldn’t think of any other activities to do that would make me feel more bold in life. I started to feel rundown and tired, both physically and emotionally. I thought about quitting. I kept thinking of all the goals and things I want to do by the end of the year, none of which felt like they were being served by completing this little dare. But I also couldn’t let myself sit there and just flake on something I’d already invested 2 weeks of life into, so I did it.
And here we are.
Y’all, I have been in a serious funk working through all of the junk over these past 4 weeks. I’ve seen the fear and the lies that I’ve lived in for far too long, and I’ve seen the Lord’s truth behind living boldly. It’s been life-changing to say the least, but even past that is the heart change. Taking a chance on God, who has taken a chance on me, is the best thing I’ve ever done. Allowing Him to work in my heart has been hard but completely worth it.
I think the biggest question I have is this: what now? Now that I’m emboldened and tired of living in fear, what do I do with that? How do I continue to live out this 31 day dare for the rest of my life?
The way I see it is that it’s going to take baby steps. Some will go backward, but most will go forward. Every moment will be a dare to live with a heart so full of Christ that there won’t be room for fear. Sometimes I will fail, but there will always be grace.
The next few months hold some pretty big potential changes for us, but my goal is to push myself to finish some of the #LiveBoldly challenges that I took on:
- I’m going to start and finish my book proposal + start looking for an agent. This terrifies me, but the reality is that it’s not my story and it’s not my book – it’s God’s. He’ll do whatever he needs to for His glory, and since he created the entire universe I think he can handle a book. So there, take that fear.
- I’m going to lessen the amount of “stuff” we have by at least half, donating most of it to some really amazing organizations in our area. I will DEFINITELY be blogging about this one because I think it’s really cool how getting rid of the junk can make room for courage and LIFE.
- I’m going to work on creating. Writing, painting, woodworking, cooking, sewing. It’s going to be scary and fun and likely a huge mess. But since I’ll have rid myself of a ton of stuff there will be room for that now 😉
- I am also going to get back to the root of my little online space here and start posting more recipes again. I have some ROCKING ones in the wings for you guys, so stay tuned for next week!
- I’m going to invest in relationships more. I get terrified about this one, choosing to put up some pretty big walls to my heart most of the time, but I want to change that. I refuse to live in fear, choosing to let God fill me up so that I can love with abandon.
- I am (we are) going to rework some numbers and make two major goals happen: growing our family and traveling more. This one will definitely not be easy, but big dreams rarely are!
31 days is a short amount of time to rework your entire line of thinking, and I look back and realize that there’s no wonder I’m tired. But I am so ready to dominate this life, to live boldly and without the bonds of fear killing the dreams and chances I’ve been given. Let’s do this, shall we? 🙂