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Wanting to Smile Again

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I do.  I want to.  But it doesn’t really feel like I can.

The second I found out my baby miscarried it was like all things fun and funny just went swirling down the drain.  I’ll admit, I’ve smiled since.  But it hasn’t been a deep, soul-induced smile.  I miss the old me almost as much as I miss my sweet child…

Thanks for listening, and with much love,

Heather

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  1. Kim in MD says

    March 7, 2011 at 12:41 pm

    I am so sorry for your loss, Heather. You are in my thoughts and prayers…

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  2. Monica says

    March 4, 2011 at 9:56 pm

    I’m not sure what hit me with your post but I am totally with you on missing your old self. Even though it’s not related at all, my mother was unexpectedly, severely disabled right before Christmas and since then, I can’t seem to find my old self. It makes me sad. Here’s to a new beginning for both of us!

    Reply
  3. Donna says

    March 4, 2011 at 2:44 pm

    I love reading your posts and i’m so unbelievably sorry for what you are going through, just take it one day at a time, its all you can do
    Sending you smiles of my own till you can smile again 🙂

    Reply
  4. Bianca @ Confessions of a Chocoholic says

    March 4, 2011 at 1:37 pm

    *hug*

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  5. Michelle (Housewife in the Raw) says

    March 4, 2011 at 11:15 am

    Don’t rush or force anything. I found the best way to handle it was just to fully experience each emotion as it comes. Sometimes I felt guilty for laughing, other times I wondered if I’d ever feel normal again. Cling to your God, your family and your friends. Praying for you.

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  6. lsf114 says

    March 4, 2011 at 10:06 am

    It will take time, but you will find your true smile again.

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  7. Katie @ Health for the Whole Self says

    March 4, 2011 at 7:51 am

    My heart aches for you, Heather.

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  8. Amy says

    March 4, 2011 at 6:48 am

    It’ll come when you least expect it. Someone will tell a joke or say something funny and that smile will just creep across your face and you won’t be able to do anything about it 🙂

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  9. Mama Pea says

    March 3, 2011 at 9:56 pm

    You’ll smile again. It’s a beautiful one.

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  10. Maryea {Happy Healthy Mama} says

    March 3, 2011 at 7:44 pm

    Oh Heather, I know how you feel. I experienced a miscarriage last May and it took a long time before I felt like smiling. I’m so sorry for your loss.

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  11. Robin says

    March 3, 2011 at 6:25 pm

    Oh, hang in there, Sweetie. Don’t push yourself. Give yourself time to heal. All of our thoughts and prayers are with you. I am so glad that you are able to find support here.

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  12. The Food Hound says

    March 3, 2011 at 6:14 pm

    My heart breaks for you, Heather. I just went through the same thing, though mine was earlier in the pregnancy. You will smile again, I promise. I tell myself that every day! Do what you need to heal. You’ll have a gorgeous baby in your arms some day. Reading your story and your emotions was very inspirational to me, too.

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  13. Julie @SavvyEats says

    March 3, 2011 at 6:12 pm

    I’ve been thinking of you these past few days. Hang in there, and know that all your readers love you!

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  14. Jessica @ Dairy Free Betty says

    March 3, 2011 at 5:11 pm

    Awwh, this is heart breaking. Sending you so much love right now Heather.
    I’m glad we could be here to support you, please let us know if there is anything we can do!!

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  15. Naomi says

    March 3, 2011 at 5:05 pm

    xoxo

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  16. janetha says

    March 3, 2011 at 4:17 pm

    Love you, Heather! My brother and his wife lost their baby @ 8 months pregnant. It took them a LONG time to smile again. But they got there. You will, too.

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  17. Christie {Nourishing Eats} says

    March 3, 2011 at 4:02 pm

    Love and light to you, Heather. I’m sorry that you are going through this.

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  18. Kristy says

    March 3, 2011 at 4:01 pm

    I am so sorry for you loss and pain. One day at a time is all you can do. Sending you warm thoughts and prayers.

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  19. Jenn @ Frost Bites says

    March 3, 2011 at 3:50 pm

    One day at a time, Heather.

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  20. Alexia @ DimpleSnatcher says

    March 3, 2011 at 3:41 pm

    When I read your miscarriage story I started to cry. It will take time, but you’ll be able to smile again :))

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  21. Apicius' Apprentice says

    March 3, 2011 at 3:38 pm

    Heather, it’s hard to know what to say that will help. I read along on all of your adventures and this one… it’s hard to know what to say. One of my best friends recently went through the same thing. I called to ask if she knew of anything to help… she did give me one rec. It was a site called https://unspokengrief.com/. Looks like a community for folks who have suffered through this kind of loss. I just want to give you a hug. Wish there was more we could do to help…

    Reply
  22. Val @ Balancing Val says

    March 3, 2011 at 3:32 pm

    Take your time, Heather.

    There is no limit or guideline for feelings like this.

    Dont hold anything back!

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  23. Lindsay says

    March 3, 2011 at 3:26 pm

    It will happen but it takes time, it took me about 5 months before I started to feel really happy again. Just take care of yourself and just know it is okay to be sad- take all the time you need.

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  24. Raewyn says

    March 3, 2011 at 3:01 pm

    Oh, Heather…I’m so, so sorry. 🙁 Please believe that even though I don’t know the pain you are going through, my heart is aching for you and Nate. Especially you. I am keeping you in my thoughts and prayers…you’re being lovingly wrapped in prayer. For you, and your precious baby.

    Don’t ever feel bad about still crying…your tears and your grief are nothing to apologize about.

    Much love,
    Rae

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  25. Emily says

    March 3, 2011 at 2:56 pm

    I agree with Lindsay (above)…you need the time to grieve. I’m so sorry you’re going through this. Cry when you feel like crying. The smiles and laughter will come with time. I’m praying for you.

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  26. Lindsay @ Summit Sandwiches says

    March 3, 2011 at 2:51 pm

    Oh goodness, there’s nothing that can be said that can ease your pain. Allow yourself the time to grieve. There is absolutely no rush to try to force yourself to feel better. Feel what you feel for now; and healing will come in time. In the meantime, know that we all support and care for you. I hope that the love of your family and friends is a source of comfort for you in the days ahead.

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  27. Sarah says

    March 3, 2011 at 2:44 pm

    Hugs to you, Heather.

    Did you get my email from a few days ago? Have you thought about that website I mentioned? I think it would be really good.

    Reply
  28. Jess (Daly Authenticity) says

    March 3, 2011 at 2:36 pm

    Heather, I am not a new follower, but I am a first time commenter. I want you to know that I care deeply and I have been praying fervently for your heart since I read the news. God is so big and so powerful. In time, He will bring that heartfelt joy back. I think it is okay for you to grieve at this time. He knows your heart and He is holding you in the palm of His hands.

    Reply
  29. spabettie says

    March 3, 2011 at 2:34 pm

    sweetie, my heart breaks for you… continually sending comfort and love…

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  30. Anna @ Newlywed, Newly Veg says

    March 3, 2011 at 2:34 pm

    I know you’ll smile again some day, girl. Don’t put pressure on yourself to immediately feel better– allow yourself to mourn and grieve.

    Reply

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