Morning everyone! How was your weekend? Mine was SO GREAT 🙂 ‘Twas definitely a huge reminder of how much I love being at home!
Sunday morning I had a Green-berry Monster, and made a little extra since my spinach would be all used up and I knew I wouldn’t make it to the store before this morning!
I put the extra in the freezer and then desecrated a beer glass with my healthy beverage 🙂
After church we headed over to the Exchange Tavern for some lunch and to meet our friend Josh’s new girlfriend (SO CUTE) 🙂 Since it’s an Irish Pub/Coffee Shop, there weren’t a ton of vegetarian options on the menu, so I decided to take some of Caitlin’s advice and get a side instead of trying to find an entree:
I decided to get the Colcannon! It was seriously so good…but I’m a fan of mixing just about anything in mashed potatoes 🙂
Afterwards we hit up Home Depot to see if they had any “Oops” paint to get on the cheap. They had a lot of random colors, and I almost bought this gorgeous chocolate brown color to use in our bathroom…until I noticed the price tag! $11 for a tiny can of paint? Sorry, Ralph Lauren, your paint can’t possibly be THAT superior. After that we went home and did some work for, well, work, while we caught up on The Office and 30 Rock from last week.
Later we headed over to our pastor’s house for some UFC fighting and beer. Yes, you read that right! It’s not about performance guys, but rather about the redeeming power of Christ. Since we weren’t really sure what kind of food would be there, we stopped by the store and got a Lean Cuisine (butternut squash ravioli is THE.BEST.FROZEN.DINNER.EVER), a pizza, and Diet Root Beer:
It’s a good thing, too, since everything else had meat in it! I looked longingly at the amazing queso dip in the crockpot, then settled on some Jelly Beans:
I ate my ravioli:
Had a Milk Stout from Lefthand Brewery:
We also made the pizza, and pulled the pepperoni off so I only had cheese. I ate a little less than 1/4 of the pizza:
The rest of the night we just hung out with some great friends and had some good laughs! I didn’t watch the fight (not a violent kind of gal), but the girls all sat around the table and talked and had fun anyway 🙂 When we got home we each had a little more work to do, then we hit the sack!
This morning I got up WAAAAAAAAY later than I meant to! Today marked the first day of the 100-Push Up Challenge for me (yikes!), so I did that workout, then did some more strength training (biceps, triceps, shoulders, squats). I’m planning on making an official workout page where I will post my workouts. It definitely helps hold me accountable! After I got ready for work I re-blended my leftover smoothie from Sunday:
I also had a glass of iced coffee! I love how Green Monsters (with berries and oatmeal!) make me feel…I always feel so much healthier after eating them!
Here’s a story for you: A while back I was wearing Nate’s shirts to bed because I was so self-conscious that my own shirts were getting too small and I didn’t want to feel fat while I was trying to go to sleep. So, in an attempt to force myself to start eating healthier, I told Nate that I was no longer allowed to wear his shirts to bed. Being a good husband, he would remind me when I tried to sneak one of his shirts to sleep in, and I would be forced to sleep in my own shirt – yet another reminder that I had not made a healthy choice earlier and that’s why I felt gross. Lately, I’ve been wearing his shirts again. Last night, he reminded me that I said I wasn’t allowed to sleep in his shirts anymore, and y’all: I TOTALLY BROKE DOWN. I had a HUGE meltdown because I feel as though I’m stuck (yet again) in a rut where I’m not losing weight. A lot of this is due to the fact that I haven’t worked out frequently over the past week or so (my knee, my sister in town, etc), but the point is I haven’t been making the healthiest food choices and I am starting to feel the progress I’ve made slipping away from me.
I’m so scared to let this happen, but I know that I’m reverting back to my old thought processes (hiding behind Nate’s shirts, trying to exercise to cover up bad eating habits, etc) and I just can’t live my life like that. It’s not healthy, physically or emotionally, and it has to stop. My plan is to make making healthy food choices a priority and start working out consistently. Having a set schedule will definitely help, and I’m just ready to start seeing results again. I was looking at my wedding photos the other day, and I was just the right size then 🙂 I just want to get to a point where I’m happy with the way that I look, but more importantly, with the way I love myself.
Have you ever reverted back to a bad habit? Did you overcome it? If so, how did you do that? If not, do you know what you need to do to stop? It’s so funny to me how when I get down, I usually find a blog post from someone else that speaks directly to me. Caitlin’s post from this morning did just that! It was a great reminder that the only one that’s stopping me is ME and the guilt that I put on myself. I have truly felt freedom when I listen to my body and ignore the way the world can creep in to tell me I’m not worthy. There’s always going to be a quick fix, but I’ve only got one life and I’m not willing to waste it on those!
I agree with the others, we all have days like that. The important thing is to keep moving forward! You are so right… Lean Cuisine Butternut Squash is the best ever!!!
3 months after our wedding none of my jeans fit (well, I couldn’t sit in them ha). I was devastated, and in a bad rut of snacking mindlessly all day long. I solved it with two plans of attack:
1. Figured out WHY I was mindlessly eating. I was really homesick, and a few quick trips home to RI fixed that
and
2. Had ONE good day. Just one day of living life the healthy way leads to two, to three, and so on!
Good luck dear and keep that chin up!
I think it is always good to want to make better choices for our health and work hard at it. So find things that work for you. Choose foods you enjoy but are still wholesome, do workouts you love, etc. It will make sticking with it a lot easier.
And the biggest advice – work on loving yourself NOW. There is no reason that a shirt fitting tighter should make you shameful. I understand it, believe me. But we are worth more than that and deserve to be happy and proud of who we are today…not wait until we are at a happy place with our bodies. 🙂
I’m glad Nate reminded you that you aren’t allowed to wear his shirts….he’s being a good husband and supportive of your journey…
anytime you think of taking one of his shirts out think of what Jillian Michaels says on the 30 Day Shred, about you can’t make a change without stepping outside of your comfort zone…its going to be hard but you can do it, you are a strong woman and you can do anything you put your mind to. You always have me here supporting you as well. I love you so much and just want you to be happy…you are the BEST big sister in the world!
What an awful feeling that progress is slipping away. I’m sorry. 🙁
Weight loss is a series of peaks and valleys. The important thing is realizing that you’re falling off the wagon before you actually fall off, or getting right back on if you do fall off.
You can do this. 🙂
I love that you picked the pepperoni off your 1/2!
don’t forget to give yourself some grace, friend! 🙂 as chicken little says, “tomorrow’s a new day!”
I made Vegan Colcannon for St. Patty`s day last week. Check out my recipe:
https://gamereviewwiki.com/bikinibirthday/2010/03/17/day-50/
Pick you’re sweet ass up and continue with that progress. The journey will never be smooth– you’ve made some amazing steps. Keep on going sister! You can so so so do this. You can.
Hang in there– we’ve all been there before. Don’t lose faith in yourself or in the hard work you’ve already put in. You’re just having a slump, but we have to have the bad days/weeks/months in order to appreciate the good ones. Thinking about you!
I think we all go through taking a “step back” or slipping away from our progress from time to time. But you just gotta get up and get back on the horse (so to speak…)! You can do it!
And no joke, hands down, you are correct- butternut squash ravioli is some of Lean Cuisine’s best work… Ever. That’s one of my favorites for grabbing something quick.
I’ve definitely been there. I’ve usually found that I’ve just remained stuck in the bad habit until I got some kick in the pants, if you will, or had some major revelation that it’s time to get back on track – something like what you’re describing here: a meltdown of sorts, or reading something really inspirational.
I will say that when I was working with a counselor for my disordered eating habits, she INSISTED that I not “punish” myself by making myself wear clothes that didn’t fit. I found that wearing clothes that fit my body at that exact moment was a way of showing myself some love, rather than making myself feel worse. So maybe it’s not so bad if you wear his t-shirts to bed.
Oh my gosh those ravioli’s and pizza look good and the green berry monster!!!
Hang in there, girl. I know how you’re feeling, but it’s honestly USELESS for us to sit around and feel guilty just because you had a few food indulgences and didn’t workout a ton. What truly matters is the majority of the time and since you are in the practice of eating well and doing good by your body, you are in the right place. I have these panic “attacks” too after having a bad day, but then I focus and come back to reality and realize that of all the things in the world to be stressed over, this is so minimal because we are in CONTROL of the situation. So hang in there! xoxo
Usually when I revert it is because I put too much pressure on myself and I have to re-examine my situation. Are my goals realistic? Are the changes that I am making ones that I can maintain forever? It gives me a better perspecitve. Most of the time I am just being too hard on myself.
I can sooooo relate to the wedding photo thing. I used to look at my wedding picture and say “I would be soooo happy if I could get to that weight. I was happy there.” One day it hit me – IT WAS NOT MY WEDDING WEIGHT THAT I WANTED, IT WAS MY WEDDING HAPPY. The weight was irrelevent – I was glowing and confident at my wedding, that is what I want.
Treat yourself well girly – and you will get where you need to be ; )
I think one of the hardest things in life is trying to STICK to good habits. Don’t beat yourself up. Sending you an email now. 🙂
I think we all go through that…am honestly what helps me is pictures. If I am ever feeling “fat” I snap a photo of myself and it brings me back to reality. For some reason I can see myself a lot more clearly in photos than in the mirror! Hang in there honey…