Morning everyone! How was your weekend? Mine was SO GREAT 🙂 ‘Twas definitely a huge reminder of how much I love being at home!
Sunday morning I had a Green-berry Monster, and made a little extra since my spinach would be all used up and I knew I wouldn’t make it to the store before this morning!
After church we headed over to the Exchange Tavern for some lunch and to meet our friend Josh’s new girlfriend (SO CUTE) 🙂 Since it’s an Irish Pub/Coffee Shop, there weren’t a ton of vegetarian options on the menu, so I decided to take some of Caitlin’s advice and get a side instead of trying to find an entree:
Afterwards we hit up Home Depot to see if they had any “Oops” paint to get on the cheap. They had a lot of random colors, and I almost bought this gorgeous chocolate brown color to use in our bathroom…until I noticed the price tag! $11 for a tiny can of paint? Sorry, Ralph Lauren, your paint can’t possibly be THAT superior. After that we went home and did some work for, well, work, while we caught up on The Office and 30 Rock from last week.
Later we headed over to our pastor’s house for some UFC fighting and beer. Yes, you read that right! It’s not about performance guys, but rather about the redeeming power of Christ. Since we weren’t really sure what kind of food would be there, we stopped by the store and got a Lean Cuisine (butternut squash ravioli is THE.BEST.FROZEN.DINNER.EVER), a pizza, and Diet Root Beer:
Had a Milk Stout from Lefthand Brewery:
The rest of the night we just hung out with some great friends and had some good laughs! I didn’t watch the fight (not a violent kind of gal), but the girls all sat around the table and talked and had fun anyway 🙂 When we got home we each had a little more work to do, then we hit the sack!
This morning I got up WAAAAAAAAY later than I meant to! Today marked the first day of the 100-Push Up Challenge for me (yikes!), so I did that workout, then did some more strength training (biceps, triceps, shoulders, squats). I’m planning on making an official workout page where I will post my workouts. It definitely helps hold me accountable! After I got ready for work I re-blended my leftover smoothie from Sunday:
Here’s a story for you: A while back I was wearing Nate’s shirts to bed because I was so self-conscious that my own shirts were getting too small and I didn’t want to feel fat while I was trying to go to sleep. So, in an attempt to force myself to start eating healthier, I told Nate that I was no longer allowed to wear his shirts to bed. Being a good husband, he would remind me when I tried to sneak one of his shirts to sleep in, and I would be forced to sleep in my own shirt – yet another reminder that I had not made a healthy choice earlier and that’s why I felt gross. Lately, I’ve been wearing his shirts again. Last night, he reminded me that I said I wasn’t allowed to sleep in his shirts anymore, and y’all: I TOTALLY BROKE DOWN. I had a HUGE meltdown because I feel as though I’m stuck (yet again) in a rut where I’m not losing weight. A lot of this is due to the fact that I haven’t worked out frequently over the past week or so (my knee, my sister in town, etc), but the point is I haven’t been making the healthiest food choices and I am starting to feel the progress I’ve made slipping away from me.
I’m so scared to let this happen, but I know that I’m reverting back to my old thought processes (hiding behind Nate’s shirts, trying to exercise to cover up bad eating habits, etc) and I just can’t live my life like that. It’s not healthy, physically or emotionally, and it has to stop. My plan is to make making healthy food choices a priority and start working out consistently. Having a set schedule will definitely help, and I’m just ready to start seeing results again. I was looking at my wedding photos the other day, and I was just the right size then 🙂 I just want to get to a point where I’m happy with the way that I look, but more importantly, with the way I love myself.
Have you ever reverted back to a bad habit? Did you overcome it? If so, how did you do that? If not, do you know what you need to do to stop? It’s so funny to me how when I get down, I usually find a blog post from someone else that speaks directly to me. Caitlin’s post from this morning did just that! It was a great reminder that the only one that’s stopping me is ME and the guilt that I put on myself. I have truly felt freedom when I listen to my body and ignore the way the world can creep in to tell me I’m not worthy. There’s always going to be a quick fix, but I’ve only got one life and I’m not willing to waste it on those!