I did not grow up Catholic, but I’ve always felt that there’s an importance of participating in Lent. It’s a season to practice preparation for Easter (or in some cases the holy week) through prayer, fasting, giving, and self denial. In the past I always participated in Lent through fasting and self-denial of foods that I loved but deemed “bad” because of current health trends or just wanting to take a break from them to lose weight. Not quite what Lent is about, but I can say that it taught me self-discipline and to look to God for strength to say no to things that I don’t physically need. Even years where I thought disordered eating and thinking was a thing of the past, I still gave up food-related things. Looking back on that now I believe that my head was in the right place, but my heart was not.
In light of our recent miscarriage, I’ve discovered more than ever that food-related issues are a thing of the past. All of those other struggles I’ve faced in my lifetime are terribly minute compared to the pain of losing our sweet child. I once again realize the incredible freedom of not worrying about food, and feel more than ever (even though I will be baking with butter and sugar and bacon still) that my body is here to nourish in a healthful way – both for me, Nate, and our future family. That’s why this year, rather than giving up meat or sugar or dairy or soft drinks (aka Cokes if you’re from Texas), I’m going to be reading through the Psalms and then journeling/meditating on them. Sometimes I might post those thoughts, and sometimes I won’t. But I’m tired of living life in a state of self-denial and believe that I need to now accept the gift of scripture and the ability to apply it to life.
Plus it’ll be nice to eat sugar-coated cheesy bacon dipped in Coke (gross, not really) with gusto and still be able to praise God because of it 🙂
Are you practicing Lent this year? What are your thoughts on the reasons for Lent? Let’s keep it classy y’all!