Hey guys! How’s everyone today? Sounds like everyone had a great Valentine’s Day! Other than not feeling great the first half, mine was pretty good!
I lunched on some of my leftover bruschetta mixed with some whole-wheat shell pasta: And I polished off the remaining 3 of Ashley’s doughballs! They were SO good! I really loved the peanut butter ones…yum 🙂
Apparently they had a very hard weekend 😉 While I was waiting on Nate to get home, I snacked on the Cold Quinoa and Fruit Salad (another one of Ashley’s fabulous recipes) in a little Anthropologie bowl:
I did Level 3 of 30 Day Shred (LOVE) and then did some upper body specific weights after: front & lateral arm raises, shoulder press, bicep curls, tricep extension, standing bent rows, and some more planks. I figure a little extra couldn’t hurt since I only did 20 minutes of exercise.
When Nate called me and told me he was getting in his car at the airport, I started making dinner. He was getting in REALLY late, but I wanted to have a fancy shmancy dinner anyway. I prepped the remainder of the bruschetta for appetizers:
This meal wasn’t the epitome of health, but I figured we had small portions and don’t do this a lot! Once Nate was home and we settled down, he built a fire in the fireplace while we watched the DVR’ed Olympics. He’s so cute 😉
We both fell asleep, then woke up and climbed in bed. This morning I did 25 minutes of yoga (warriors, triangles, lots of stretches) and made yet another batch of PB & Jelly Chia Oats. This stuff is so good…and I gotta say, I like peanut butter MUCH more than almond butter. Sorry guys. But almond butter is the best with carrots!
- I won my first contest yesterday! Thanks Janna!
- Nate & some of our friends are going to start home brewing! I’m really excited to try the beers out…I’ll let you know when we get rich off of it 😉
- I came to a realization yesterday.
The third item is what I want to talk about the most. This past weekend was not my best food weekend, and it really left me feeling down and out. I was really bummed, and as a result didn’t eat portions or meals the way that I need to in order to accomplish my goal of losing weight and feeling good about myself. Yesterday, Caitlin planted a little seed of thought into my head with this post. It really made me stop and think about what I consider “failure” and what I consider a “good performance” (both physically and nutritionally). Then, when I was doing 30-Day Shred, Jillian said something like, “If it’s getting hard, focus on the reasons you bought this DVD in the first place.” BAM! This hit me over the head like a ton of bricks! I immediately realized (as oblivious as I am to these things) that by rating my “performance” with eating and exercising, I was secretly looking for ways to sabotage myself. I don’t feel like I deserve to lose this weight because I’m not always doing all the “right” things. And so there, in the middle of my 2 minutes of cardio boxing punches, I started sobbing and yelling, “I DESERVE to feel good. I’M NOT FAT!”
Now, my dogs looked at me like I was a crazy person, but I didn’t care. I came to a huge realization yesterday: if this is going to work, if I’m going to lose this weight, if I’m going to believe in myself, and if I’m going to have my husband take pictures of me in my wedding gown for my birthday, then I need to LOVE MYSELF enough to let me get there. So, from this day forward, I am not going to rate my “performance” and I am going to stop the internal Fat Talk. I deserve this, and I know it, so it starts today!
Do you love yourself? What are some of your goals, and are you allowing yourself to achieve them? This was a huge realization for me; now I feel like my biggest struggle will be keeping it on the forefront of my mind!