I’m going to be honest here guys: the enemy is at work big time in my life right now. Preying on all the little weaknesses, the insecurities, the fears. He’s prying open worries that I’ve given over to the Lord many times over again, and yet apparently there’s still room for those healing moments to be exposed again. He’s whispering in my ear those little lies of not enough: not doing enough, not being enough, not thinking enough, not loving enough. I catch myself in this gloomy terrible mood, staring off into the distance while the here and now – this gift of life – flies by. And I stop. I drop, literally, to my knees. Most times I cry. And I just ask God to get me through.
There are a lot of things that have happened this past week, but the biggest and saddest of all was the passing of our friend Andrew. I’ve written about his and his wife‘s amazing journey as he battled cancer. I felt that surely, SURELY he would come through and be cancer free by a miracle of God. Granted, he IS now cancer free by a miracle of God, but in my sadness it’s hard to remember that. I think of his unwavering faith, Bailey’s hope in the Lord, and I think of how his little girl (only 3) will never really know her dad but will definitely know the legacy of faith he leaves behind. I’m so happy he’s no longer in pain, but my heart hurts and the tears fall freely at the sadness I feel for his family.
It really makes me sit back and wonder that if I’m gone tomorrow, would my life have impacted anyone for the Lord? Would I have loved others well enough that they would know that it’s all because of His love? Sometimes I look at my life and I just don’t know. But I know that God’s love covers it all – all the times I mess up, the times I forget, the times I let the enemy in because it just feels comfortable to wallow in my own dirtiness. I’m redeemed, and I can live my life in that promise of everlasting love and hope and know that He’s got it. Me, you, all of us for always.
Kind of heavy for a post about popsicles, right? I suppose I could tell you a couple of really good things about these though, because really they are just SO GOOD. They’re light, refreshing, wonderfully tart and just the right amount of sweet. Perfect for the days when you want to sit back and just let life soak in, to marvel at the glorious beauty around us. My prayer for you today, sweet friends, is that you would love God and love one another as you love yourself. And popsicles for all 🙂
CREAMY LEMONADE POPSICLES
- 1 cup lemon juice
- 1 cup water
- 1 cup whole milk
- 1/2 cup stevia powder or sugar (I use stevia and prefer Stevia in the Raw for this)
- 1/2 tsp vanilla
Combine all ingredients in a bowl and whisk until the stevia or sugar is dissolved. Pour into popsicle molds and freeze at least 4 hours before serving!