It’s been a long time since I have addressed my struggles with eating, weight, and everything related to those two subjects on the blog.
There’s a reason for that.
You see, I finally found freedom from disordered eating in that I finally stopped caring about it. I stopped letting it run my thoughts. And with that I stopped addressing it because it has no place in my life anymore. I was finally able to start to LIVE, eat what I want when I want, cook anything and everything. It felt good to not care because when you spend over a decade worrying about food it starts to make you tired. Trust me, I know.
But along the line I have felt my health decline a bit in that with blogging there’s hardly any time to work out and I have tons of delicious food surrounding me. And now that I know I can trust myself it’s time to reign it back in a bit.
It’s been a long road, and now I feel like I’m finally at the point where I can allow myself to eat healthfully more often in a way that doesn’t rule my life and take over my every thought. I crave healthy food. I crave cooking unhealthy food. And I feel like always enjoying food no matter what the ‘status’ is.
I feel like I can finally live my life in freedom. And I just wanted to share that with ya’ 😉
Thanks to you all for being so amazing, so encouraging, so loving, and so darn fabulous. It means so much to just spill myself out there and have such amazing people support that!
Much love,
Heather
i loveeeed this post and am so glad i read it! i know what you mean about always wanting to cook unhealthy food. and i also know what you mean about thinking about the way you eat running you life. i, too, let go awhile back and it’s so much nicer (and more fun) to cook things that don’t HAVE to have certain nutritional statistics.
i love you lots, lady. thanks for making me think about things and smile.
Praise God! Thank you for sharing your amazing sweet spirit.
Good for you! Speaking from experience I say that it’s hard to get to where you are… (I’m still working on it in fact). So thanks for being a great example!
Good for you Heather, this is wonderful.
so happy for you!!
Yay!! Congratulations on your found freedom.
You. Are. Amazing. PERIOD!!!
Great post. I can’t wait for the day when I don’t have to think about my relationship with food. I would like there to be a time when it just comes naturally. Glad to know there is hope. 🙂
i love that you have gotten to that point, i am so happy for you! you set a wonderful example for all of your readers:-)
Really proud of you! I think that’s what all of us are striving for and its always so encouraging to see someone break those chains. Congrats and thanks for always being such an inspiration!
thanks maria! that means so much to me!
Great post! I am smiling for you 🙂
I am smiling so big for you right now! You are one amazing person!
no, YOU are…and i love your big smiles! i can feel them radiating from Texas 🙂
Good for you Heather! Life must look so much brighter for you now(as evidenced by the beautiful pic of the golden aspens.)
Suzanne
I totally understand the feeling of tiredness that comes with that…I’ve been trying to let go for so long now….every day brings me closer to that freedom! I know the Lord will carry through my healing to completion, though, so I live with that hope!
thanks for being so open!! 🙂
just hang in there girl…i remember very tearful times where i didn’t think it would ever end. i don’t even remember what happened, it just CLICKED! praise the Lord 🙂
So happy to read this and see how happy you are.
Those who have struggled with disordered eating can move past the disorder but still love the eating. 🙂
amen 🙂
Great story– Ditto what Mama Pea says– posts like this are inspirational to women (and men) who struggle or have struggled with disordered eating. As a fellow recoveree, I really appreciate you sharing this. You’re awesome!
i’m so glad you’re encouraged in it!!!
I’m so glad that you have come so far! You are the best big sister ever! Can’t wait to do BFL with you 🙂
i know, i’m so excited! i love you!
Really, really great. I think anyone that has struggled with recovering from any sort of issue with food can appreciate what you are saying. You don’t swear off making smart decisions about your health when you swear off an eating disorder. Just like you can’t swear off eating if you swear off overeating.
I look forward to watching you find your happy medium!!!
amen mama pea…perfectly said!
Love ya!
This is beautiful Heather! You’re beautiful 🙂
thank you estella…as are you!
I want to say congrats but I feel like that is such a lame term to describe such a fabulous feeling of freedom! Hooray! Im really happy for you!
Yay!!!! Wonderful post to read!! Much happiness!
What a fantastic post. I can completely resonate with what you’re saying! So glad you’re FREE (and that I’m free, too!)!
woohoo! feels good, right?!
(((((Heather))))) You are awesome.
YOU are 🙂