It’s been a long time since I have addressed my struggles with eating, weight, and everything related to those two subjects on the blog.
There’s a reason for that.
You see, I finally found freedom from disordered eating in that I finally stopped caring about it. I stopped letting it run my thoughts. And with that I stopped addressing it because it has no place in my life anymore. I was finally able to start to LIVE, eat what I want when I want, cook anything and everything. It felt good to not care because when you spend over a decade worrying about food it starts to make you tired. Trust me, I know.
But along the line I have felt my health decline a bit in that with blogging there’s hardly any time to work out and I have tons of delicious food surrounding me. And now that I know I can trust myself it’s time to reign it back in a bit.
It’s been a long road, and now I feel like I’m finally at the point where I can allow myself to eat healthfully more often in a way that doesn’t rule my life and take over my every thought. I crave healthy food. I crave cooking unhealthy food. And I feel like always enjoying food no matter what the ‘status’ is.